Sorry for the long break lol. As always, I've been really REAALLY busy. The last week of school was crazy!! Felt like a zombie and didn't sleep much.

On top of that, my laptop is broken >< Cuz due to some mishaps, soup was spilled all over my keyboard and now most letters on the left side of the keyboard refuse to work!!!! Booooooo.

In order to actually type anything, I had to use the Windows' Character Map to create sentences. Sad. Since then, I've also became an expert in copying and pasting distinct letters, words (or a fraction of) from people's msges to fill in the missing letters that I can't type with my keyboard. In addition to that, I've also managed to communicate through the use of emoticons. I count my blessings for having accumulated all sorts of emoticons in my collection. lol.

No. I am not using all of the above methods to type this entry. I find it very time consuming and frustrating to not be able to express myself fully and instantly. hahaha. This is my sis's desktop, if you really want to know. lol.

And, no. Finals aren't over yet. They haven't even started for me. Gonna have two this week. Then I'm done! Finally! From school! For good!

Can't believe that I am finally done... I don't feel any excitement or a sense of achievement at the thought of graduating. Think the whole graduating-and-getting-a-degree thing is overrated. I still feel the same. If anything, I actually feel kinda scared at the thought of what the future may hold.

Kinda scared of going home for a few months. Not sure how things will be like. Wonder if I would be busy and happy. Or if I would be bored and lonely. I feel like I've lost touch with so many people that I met in the past. I am currently so engrossed in my current world, that somehow, it seems that my memories of my past seem faint.

Will things pick up from where I left it at? So much has changed. So much has happened since I last went back. I recognize that I have changed. My perception of things have changed. My values have changed. My attitudes have changed. I wonder whaat will happen.

And what will happen when I come back here? After a long break? I am mildly terrified of what to expect. There will be no more classes for me to attend. I will be, possibly, out of touch with my friends here. I have to adapt to the change.

Gosh! I don;t even want to think about it! Everyone keeps asking me to think of what I want to do in the future. But I keep refusing to do so. Determined not to let go of my present. Stubbornly hoping that changes in my life will be stagnant and continue being as how it is now.

I think, I love my life too much. The life that I have now. Maybe, I am too happy. Is there such a thing? As being too happy? I know for sure that I am happy. And I am happy with my life. And maybe, that is why I refuse to move on. Why I refuse to think of the future. Refuse to anticipate it. Refuse to plan for it. Refuse to welcome it.

Sigh. Think this is the quarter-life crisis that suzz calls it. ><

Oh well. Maybe. All I need is a long break. I can't wait to go back. And see my loved ones. The familiar faces of my dearest family and friends.

=P

On an entirely different note, it was snowing really bizzarely a few weeks back. In November! It was crazy. Think the weather is really screwed up.

Neways, it was my first time ever driving on snow. And boy, was it different!! I had a near death experience. Being extremely inexperienced, I think I was going downhill a tad too fast. (At 50 only mah) And when I was approaching a bend, I tried to brake, and started swerving. Could barely control my steering wheel. Was so freaked out. Luckily I came to a halt without crashing. A car waas behind me but he was going really slowly. and he stopped, if not I would;ve crashed into him I think.

But yeah. haha. Was so freaked out! Drove at like, 20km/h after that. lol.

Alright. Conclusion, I am an expert in driving in the snow now. lol.

Gonna study for abit.

Back to KL in 15 days!!!!!

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