After one week of missing my friends, feeling depressed from the reality hit of being back here, and calculating how much longer I was to retirement... I have to say life has pretty much resumed to normal.

Honestly though, the first week that I was back, I had a huge urge to just quit my job, pack my bags and move back to KL.

I really missed my parents and my cute little brother (who, of course, ain't little no more ><). After going on this trip, I missed my high school friends even more. For a moment, I actually remembered why I was so happy in KL. And I really missed those times.

Times when my family was united. Times when my group of friends were together. Times when I could just have dinner with my family and then go out with my friends for a yumcha session. Times when my friends were busy and my family was there to accompany me. Or times when my family was busy and my friends were there to accompany me. Times that are now merely memories. Sweet sweet memories.

Maybe Yeeling is right. Maybe going home is the right thing to do. Is the right choice. Should I? I am definitely tempted to do so. In fact, I am leaning more and more towards heading back to Asia. After all, if things don't work out there, I could always come back.

Tsk tsk. And after having all these thoughts, the next day I wake up to go to work, or to hang out with my friends if its a weekend, or have brunch with my grandma, aunt, uncle and little cousins. I go apartment hunting with my friends and aunt. I chat and laugh and talk to my co-workers and friends like normal.

I know that I will definitely miss Vancouver when I leave. If I leave. But the thing that's bugging me most is this nagging question in my head: What am I gonna do when I go back?

These few days I've actually been thinking about it. And these are what I came up with:

1) TVB Pearl in HK (hopefully can become a Host for a Travel & Eat show.. think Rachel Ray)
2) Radio DJ in KL (since I get a lot of compliments that I have a sweet voice haha)
3) Open a cafe in KL
4) Start my own business (to be announced)
5) MTV VJ in Singapore (I'm serious. I will have to lose some weight first though.)
6) Teach English in HK

However, I think I would most likely be doing this:

7) Get some fucking job and work like a dawg

So, I actually checked out the jobs in TVB last night. Lol. They have quite a lot of jobs.. in which I probably qualify for about 1 out of 15 jobs. >< I didn't even see a position for a host for a Tasty Travel show.

Anywho, I am giving myself till December 31, 2008 to decide if I will go back for good or not. So I have 90 days to decide. Approximately.

Sigh.... what should I do?

I wish I could just pluck the petals of a rose and let that decide my fate.

After all if everything goes wrong, I can just blame it on the rose.

Should I? Should I not? Should I? Should I not? SHOULD I? SHOULD I NOT?

SHOULD I?

SHOULD I NOT?

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