I love it. =)

Am currently in the comp labs at school. Just had disgusting soggy tempura udon. ><

Ok. This shall not be another random and meaningless post.

Lemme see....

Well time flies. Last night while I was lying on bed, probably the last few minutes before I drifted off to sleep, I was looking back at every school year of my life. Well more so my high school years onwards. The first 12 years of my life had sorta been fuzzy with a few prominent memories standing out amongst them.

But anyways, I was amazed at how I could just think of a random year, and everything about that year just flashed right back to me.

I was actually going through the years one by one: 1997, 1998, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002.... 2006.

These were merely four digit numbers but yet, they were so much more significant than that. These numbers meant alot to me, and with every number, I could relate to it differently. Had different emotions. Remembered different songs. Cringed and laughed at different things.

I was actually listing the prominent events that occurred that year, my age, what class I was in, how my hair looked like, haha.

And by the time I got to 2006, I realized... that I had just gone through a whole decade of my life.

And let me just say that when you realize something like that, there is nothing you can do but feel old. ><

But yet, I am only 22. Less than half the age of my mom and dad. Not even a third of my grandmother's age. Who am I to succumb to old age?

I mean, come to think of it. At 22, I am already missing my childhood. Missing my high school years. Missing the innocence and carefree-ness of a teenager and dreading the responsibilities and burdens of a young adult.

I can't imagine how I would be like twenty years down the road. I cannot picture myself in my parents' shoes. I cannot visualize myself as a middle aged woman. What would I think? How would I feel? Would I be missing my twenties? Would high school life be a blur?

I mean, I've always envisioned myself twenty or thirty years down the road to be successful, passionate about what I do, happy with my life etc.

But I guess this is what every young person envisions about themselves. I mean, who would picture themselves as a corrupted, selfish and consequentialistic workaholic? Or a brutal, cold hearted murderer? Or a homeless bum who couldn't find a job to afford food and shelter? Or a cheating husband with five failed marriages? (Sorry couldn't resist putting that in.. it's kinda common now, don't you think?)

Oh well.. I guess it is similar to high school. I mean which 5 year old kid would look into the mirror and go: "When I get to high school, I want to be a geek."

But yet, as cruel as it may sound, we all know that in every school there will always be one person who is... shunned by his/her peers because he/she has different ideas and thoughts about whatever.

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Oh well. I guess all one can do is the perform their very best and stay true to themselves. Haha. That sounds so cliche.

Gotta go for class now. Mmmm. Had good sushi. Slurp.

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