Honestly, I have no idea why I am still making a big deal out of this. After all, time flies. The years come and go. I should be used to this by now. Or rather, I am beginning to understand why my parents don't care much for New Years, birthdays and such.

I'll be turning 25 soon. Again, I should be used to turning a year older. Just when I have finally accepted that I am a year older and feeling comfortable with it, and now I have to go through the whole thing again. Yep, I should definitely be used to all of this.

I make myself seem so old. And to be honest, over the course of a few months, I HAVE felt that I am older. Maybe I have finally accepted the brutal fact that I can NOT turn back time and live like an innocent child again.

So having said all that, I guess I have yet to get used to turning a year older and accepting it. lol.

What scares me is the fact that the number 25 seems so OLD. Whenever I tell stories or am told stories about other people, I like to know how old they are so that I can imagine what maturity level they are in and what phase of life they should be in.

And to be honest, I always imagined the age of 25 to be the time for someone who is starting to settle down, has it going for them, a career, knows what they want etc.

And now that I'm there, or almost there to be exact, I have to admit that I am nowhere near that. I'm not even ready to be that.

Man, this is like deja vu all over again. I feel like this every year when I turn a year older.

As paranoid as I can be, I hate to think what would be racing through my mind when I finally hit the big 3-0.

Aside from that, 2009 looks to be a good year. My parents will be visiting in May. Yenni promised she would visit but... keeps fingers crossed. Lol. If all goes well, I am also planning on going back to Malaysia for a one month vacation in August. Still keeping my fingers crossed.

And I suppose the rest will fall into place as it always does.

Today's the first sunny day after a month of rain, snow, clouds, fog and gloom. Which makes me even more eager for summer to come. I love how beautiful Vancouver looks under the glorious golden sun. It gives me a sense of inner peace and content.

So on a random note, I have nothing else to say. Will update soon.

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